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My Mindset

I'm not quite sure. I have to go back to school tomorrow. I really do not want to. I want to be free a few more weeks to daydream and stay up like an owl til the morning hours. I want time to get reacquainted with myself. I want to write again, I want to be inspired to take pictures again, i want to be able to focus long enough to finish one of the many books I have yet to read. All this want, all of it, seems trivial in the face of what I need to get done.
Housework,Homework, not Truancy, etc.

I can not wait until I have my own place, my own life. I know this is a sentiment expressed by a great many of teens my age but it does not change the fact that my thirst for independence has yet to be quenched.

Two Days

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Goodness, It feels like I've been through two days today!
I woke up at 6 am and went running. 8 miles was awful.
I came home, did some last minute work I needed to catch up on, and I passed out!
I woke up at 1:00 feeling refreshed although a bit groggy.
I'm excited for tommorow. A chance to wear my new outfit!

Without a cause

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I'm completely in love with Rebel Without A Cause right now. Check it out, I even made and outfit on polyvore inspired by the leading lady Judy. James Dean is definitely a swoon worthy guy.

hello

I just saw the Spirit. It was a silly movie not too bad at all. I loved the costume design. I'm inspired to dress like I'm from the 50s.
Scarlett Johansson's outfits were my favorites. Sexy Librarian-esque.

Je suis réveillé!

Good Morning actually afternoon...
I'm suprised I'm actually awake.
I stayed up to watch the stars fall.

2:54

Images from WeHeartIt.

This is what i'm thinking at 2:54 in the am on a Thursday night/Friday morning.

1. about my boyfriend who is killing imaginary enemies in the interactive world of xbox gaming
2. that the fact that someone three years my senior can manage to be as mature as someone four years younger than me. I find the hypocrisy in this startling. Not that I didn't know this about him before but it is still hard to come to terms with the fact that people never change. He will forever be a lost boy in this fast paced world. he will never realize his own ridiculous mentality. And I don't know why I still put up with it. Maybe it's because he was the first boy i really trusted. Loved. Was the first boy to break my heart and the first to make amends to me. I've been outgrowing him these past few years but I don't think I'll ever burn this bridge of ours.
3. the options for my tomorrow. I'm very excited to spend the day with my brother and uncle. I never see my uncle anymore. He used to live in NY and he recently moved to TN.
   much closer to my family's new home.
4. writing. Augh my muse has forsaken me. What's a writer to do when she can't write? i'm not sure but i've been reading and collaging and starting up a blog. Taking new photos and eating good food. I know if i want to keep up with it though i'm going to have to devote some time each week to writing a bit. This blog will help i'm sure.
5. Snow. I wish we could have a soft white muting blanket cover the landscape here but alas the climate doesn't allow it. I miss the snowy Decembers and Januarys I spent in IN. the chapped lips, the snow ball fights, the icicles, the red noses and cheeks, the comfy sweaters and jackets. The fire in our grate that we warmed ourselves by. Those were the winters i love to remember.
6. How i wish i could decide whether to save up for a new speedlite flash for my Canon or get a Diana.